The Jian Ghomeshi Sexual Assault Allegations Remind Us It’s The Victims Who Matter Most
How did I miss the word â€œvictimâ€ when I first read his post? Iâ€™d like to say I have an excuse, but I donâ€™t. I read the whole thing. More than once. I didnâ€™t think, â€œWell, that scorned woman must be lying.â€ I just somehow forgot that, within his exquisitely crafted essay, a victimâ€™s voice was hiding.
I consider myself a feminist, and pro-victimâ€™s rights. I believe every woman should have the chance to tell her story. I know that not every victim feels like they should â€“ or can â€“ go to the police, and that sometimes when they do, they hear â€œWell, itâ€™s really he-said, she-said, isnâ€™t it?â€ or â€œThen what were you doing at his apartment?â€ And if you had asked me on October 25 if I would ever contribute to a culture of skepticism and victim-blaming, I would have said no. But on October 26, when my chance to stand up and take notice came, I justâ€¦let it go by.
This last week has been ugly. I learned about the piece on xoJane by Carla Ciccone from June 2013 about creepy, boundary-crossing behavior by a man who is clearly Ghomeshi â€“ a post that earned her threats from Ghomeshi fans. Lucy DeCoutere took the brave step of publicly speaking to the media about her own experience with Ghomeshi. The blog post Do you know about Jian?Â on nothinginwinnipeg.com infuriated me because of the idea that the only recourse dozens, maybe hundreds, of women have had until now is murmured warnings. And now it seems that the CBC knew about rumors, gossip, and even direct accounts and complaints of Ghomeshiâ€™s behaviour, not just privately but in his work on the show, for months before it was apparently enough to call a halt.
I am angry about so many things. I am angry that Ghomeshi has turned BDSM, a legitimate practice when done with care and consideration for all parties involved, into cover for abuse, and that heâ€™s refused to respond to reports of his inappropriate and harassing workplace behaviour. I am angry that the CBC knew and didnâ€™t properly investigate sooner, and that they ever gave him the option of the â€œeasy outâ€ of resigning. I am angry every time I hear â€œWhy didnâ€™t she say something soonerâ€ or â€œWhy didnâ€™t she go to the police.â€
But mostly Iâ€™m angry at myself, because I am not the person that I thought I was, and I am not the protector and champion of victims of abuse that I aspire to be. I had the chance to stand in solidarity with women who struggle to have the crimes committed against them by a person in power recognized. I didnâ€™t take it.
I have both a son and a daughter. I do not want either of them to grow up in a world where people, no matter who they are, can regularly harass people in the workplace, choke or hit a sexual partner without consent, and otherwise abuse people around them, and yet never have their actions be punished becauseâ€¦heâ€™s a star.Â What is coming out about Ghomeshi is ugly. What it has revealed about all of us is uglier. We are not as good at responding to victims as we ought to be, as we need to be.Â And what is ugliest for me is that, when I condemn how we all responded, I must include myself.
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