being a mom
Scary Mommy: My Son Prefers His Father Over Me
I think everyone remembers the sting of their first unrequited love: the heartache, the confusion over what you did wrong or why youâ€™re not good enough, and the deep longing to be with them any way you can. Sure, itâ€™s all part of growing, not to mention a plot device in almost every teen romantic comedy Iâ€™ve ever seen. It hurts, but we move on. If the object of our affection doesnâ€™t want us then it wasnâ€™t meant to be.
Unless it was.
What is a person to do when the true love of their life rejects them? What is a mom to do when that rejection comes from their child?
My youngest son has been a ray of sunshine for me since the moment he was born. I loved him instantly. There was no bonding or settling period. He had my heart wholly and completely from his first breath. I was smitten, and he was mineâ€¦for a while.
As soon as he was old enough to show a preference, my little angel wanted his Daddy. I told myself I was glad they were bonding, that it was just a phase, and that Daddy was just a novelty because he wasnâ€™t home all day like I was. For a while these excuses eased my jealousy. He still loved me even if he preferred to be held by my husband.