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I Refuse To Be Ashamed When My Kids Google Me In 10 Years

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Since I work as a so-called mommy blogger, I’ve been thinking a lot about my Google trail. We all have a Google trail in some form or another, whether through a personal blog, blog comments, or social media. For most parents, social media is clearly the biggest culprit. This is why many parents today are worried about what they post about their kids—in case talking shit about toddler tantrums comes back to bite them in a few decades.

I’ve thought the same thing too. I’ve had moments of self-doubt where I worried if my “mommy blogger” job was going to destroy my kids and our future relationship. I thought and thought and weighed all the possible outcomes. I’ve come to my own personal conclusion in response to the many mommy blogging critics: FUCK THAT.

This is my job, and I love every minute of it. I also love talking with and getting to know the Mommyish readers, and I am being my authentic self. Yes, I’ve written about quite a few unsavory topics (blow jobs come to mind), but I’m not ashamed of any of it. If you met me in real life, I would talk and act the exact same way.

So I’m not sure exactly what I am supposed to be hiding from my kids? They are going to use the Internet in the future as they drive their hologram robot cars to work. But they are still going to be my kids. I would hope that we would already have an open dialogue and an open relationship. When they decide to Google all of my blogs and possibly read them, I would love to talk with them about it. Or, maybe we could Google and read them together and hash it all out.

I just don’t see how all of this can be damaging if you already have a solid relationship with your kids. Yes, I make jokes about parenting on the Internet, and I also make jokes about myself. This process of becoming a transparent mommy blogger has challenged me to be more honest with myself, and I really am proud. If my kids want to know anything about me, on the Internet or off, all they have to do is ask. I’m an open book blog.

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